You ever feel like just giving up? I can’t catch a break. It’s just one thing after the other. Life’s like that sometimes, that feeling of “It’s just not my day, week or month”. We see people who wear a smile day in and day out. We assume that everything is fine in their life but looks are deceiving.
Where I work, many think of me as a generally happy person. That’s because I am, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t hurt. Maybe I just hide it better than most. But what happens when it’s just all too much for you to handle. You want to talk to someone but you think no one will understand.
When Life throws you off
I’ve been on an emotionally roller coaster lately. My feelings are all tied up. I’m drained of the negative energy surrounding me. And sometimes, I just want to disappear. I know that many people feel that way, but how many of us say it? I mean out loud. What’s wrong in saying, “I’m sad… hurt… damage… lonely… scared.” Words I hear around me all the time.
I understand that no one wants to seem weak in front of anyone. It’s belittling and can leave you feeling powerless. But what if saying it and owning it gives us some power back? Often times, we forget owning our fears and inhibitions is us taking control over the situation. We’re not pretending anymore that everything is ok just because we don’t want anyone in our business.
“I’VE HAD ENOUGH!!!” That’s what I scream inside when I’m at my limit. In that moment, the smallest joke could piss me off. We keep yelling inside because we think it’s just having some self control. It’s sometimes more damaging than we think.
It’s time for a change… Throw one back
Change can be a great thing. In fact, it can lead to a greater transformation than we’ve ever seen. I’ve had that once before and it’s amazing how much joy it brought me. But change can be scary for many. It can be anything from a new job or new love. The unknown is always filled with uncertainty.
I don’t believe in fear holding us back. Fear can be a catalyst in blocking our dreams. We do that to ourselves more than we think. In simple terms, we are the barriers to what we want to achieve. That new position at work, or new business venture or new relationship seems like a mountain. Just looking at it makes you tired. But it doesn’t have to be.
There’s this feeling we have when we achieve our goals. The excitement, the satisfaction or the joy of just feeling something for someone again. Knowing that we aren’t weak, helpless or broken beyond repair. That’s the reason why change is so important. You’re not stuck in the same place you were. There’s room to grow. To laugh, love and mess up as much as you can. That’s the only way to learn.
In the end…
Before I wrote this, I was upset. I was hurt and I was disappointed. I felt let down for obvious reasons. But now I’m not. Because in the end, life is filled with hard things and disappointments. There’s so many factors that can make or break you. I chose to make it and turn into a better version of myself.
I’m not in the same place I was when I wrote this down. I feel stronger and sure of myself. I took my power back and it feels great. The question is, can you?